Hello people of the Internet! The name is Kostadin. I am almost 17 years old, living in Bulgaria, southeastern Europe. From 1st to 4th grade I was in an ordinary municipal school. I was "the nerd", naturally smarter compared to the others, participating in mathematic competitions. In my country there is the option to join the math-oriented high school three years earlier before everybody else joins a school of this level (specialized either maths, but also different languages, computer science, engineering, etc,) and this is what I did under the guidance of my parents (I was 5th grade back then). For the last six years I have been a part of the same class, with little to not changes in the composition. Here I am not "the smart guy", or "the nerd", but that person who likes weird music (death and black metal,) is interested in weird things (for our age - politics, economics, philosophy, psychology) and with whom you can't really have a casual conversation, or at least isn't a preferred option. Sometime ago it was bothering me, now I have decided that I don't want to have anything in common with almost everyone there, they don't want as well, profit - profit. Before the beginning of this astronomical year, I didn't take care of myself at all. I had become lazy, never was too much into any kind of sports, played a lot of Starcraft 2 (and mind you I was very good at it, but making money out of the game would mean for me to basically stop everything else and play games 24/7,) masturbated to pretty much all genres of Internet porn legally available and it should be no surprise what this led to. Well, I think I can say that I'm in a very good position compared to what I was less than an year ago - I've made some friends, had a pretty decent social life during the summer, stopped excessive masturbation, started reading more books, exercising - a number of people have complimented me on my physique. So why am I seeking help from others? Because I know that I can do much better and I feel like I have run out of my capabilities of improving myself by just doing stuff. Also I'm still lazy as far as school goes, habits that have been part of me for years are hard to overcome. I have decided not to focus on girls for the entirety of the school year and only do something if a good opportunity presents itself before me. Here is a list of what I want to achieve: - 3rd round of the national competition in English for my grade (today I was told that I have passed the first round successfully, the second is between January and February); - 2nd round of the national competition in Chemistry for my grade (first round is going to be on 17th January; while I don't have set myself to get to the 3rd round, getting a good score on the second one - 60% is something that I want to do); - 3rd round of the national competition in Philosophy (this has been an interest of mine for years, I am good at writing stuff, so I just really want to get there); - finishing the school year with only As (which I have done for 9 years straight now and I don't plan on stopping here.) //side goals - I want to find time to play the acoustic guitar again and learn enough musical theory that I feel comfortable with playing in front of other people - I want to learn at least the basics of the Korean language - learn how to approach people; I have no problems in holding a one-on-one conversation with somebody, but first impression is something that I always fail miserably at - learn to hold my ground and principles at all reasonable cost; I feel like an used or useless wimp sometimes, I'm a very, very generous person as far as helping others goes and obviously a good number of people try to use me as much as possible, without actually giving anything themselves or even having a casual conversation once a month It also wouldn't be bad for me to find out what I want to be doing after I finish school, because honestly I have absolutely no clue at the current moment. Well that sums up the goals that I have set so far, but of course I'm ready to make any reasonable changes.